I'm struggling with my thoughts lately. I always peeking for the newest illustration project on behance.com and instantly amused with Steve Simpson works. Since I've been working with Adobe Illustrator for almost 4 months, I found Steve's work is passing my expectation in digital illustration. I want to explore more but it's hard too keep up with my mood-swing. So when I start to give up in my work, I take a deep breath, close my eyes, have a short daydreaming, take a long stare at incredible illustration in behance.com and deviantart. Then, I get my mood back and start to work again.
But then, I found this great manual illustration by
Tetiana Kartasheva and I took a really long time to adore her illustration mood. It's very clean but fully beautiful at a same time. When I found out that she made an illustration book for her graduation project, I just very disappointed with myself. I made my own for graduation project too but how it came out in very rough shape was below my expectation. I know that I never want to give more although all of the plan was already in my head. So, what I need more right now is courage and an 'iron will'. And yeah, right until now, I still want to and crave to draw manually. I feel more close and intimate with my works when I did it manually so I really appreciate artists that still do their artworks in traditional way. But, many artists that could translate their skill in digital form better than in the manual way,
Kali Ciesemier for example. So, whatever the medium, as long as the artists could translate what they want to create visually, it will turn out as a great artwork.
And I believe that I love drawing. I've tried to do something else, reading, make a craft stuff, writing, taking photos, and creating video, but still I can left drawing behind everything else :')
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A calm song also really helps a lot. I personally like a song with dreamy tunes and not really attached to the lyrics, since most of them are about love . But a dreamy love song is quite helping to make my mind relaxed for a while. My favourite lately is Landon Pigg's Falling in
Love at Coffee Shop. Never fails to make me smile when hearing this song. When I want to get a mood booster, FUN.'s
Some Nights (although it's a song about war, but the melody is very catchy) or
Carry On is really cheered me up :D
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I wish you all could pass your hard times when struggling with your life choices... And whatever your choice is, never leave your dreams, never leave what you love to do, because that's the reason why you have a meaningful life.
